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.it's been so long that it seems like i've never danced with anyone.

.as they most usually begin.
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so, here i am again. writing in this futile attempt at a journal type thing. i do have to say, though, that things have been interesting since the last time that i've written in here. i've moved back to florida, moved back with my parents (weird), started getting back into shape, and went to california for work. it's been interesting to say the least. but, now i really need to get things straightened out and be on my way. i really never pictured me being here when i was younger. i guess i have to make the best out of what i have right now. i am tired and i will say more later.

goodnight

~albert

.turn it around.
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i'm getting that feeling where it's nervousness mixed with "you know this is going to be good" and i do know it's going to be good, i just don't know what to make of everything right now.

.so, here we go.
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alright, now. it's two thousand nine and it's all sorts of hopping, i guess. started the new year with a big celebration, which was awesome! my parents do still know how to have a party. anyhow, with a new year comes a new, well, year to do things. so, what am i doing? being healthy. that's right. i'm doing the same thing as everyone else in the entire world and it will be fantastic. seriously.

but, enough of that let's take a look back in time. 2008 was pretty good in itself. started the year just right. small gathering, amazing company, and a bottle of blue label. who could ask for more? well, briefly the rest of the year: Had a great time with a lovely person, went to mississippi, got fired, got wasted, went to vegas, got more wasted, saw a HUGE hole in the earth, partied all summer long, played a wicked show, saw modest mouse, finished university, went to destin, got wasted on a river, got wasted and kinda/sorta saw b.b.king and willie nelson, went to canada on vacation, got wasted at my cousins wedding, stayed in canada for a job, drove to canada with my mom, saw dredg in new york, got wasted with dredg in new york, went to florida for the holidays, got wasted in florida for the holidays, and now here we are in the present.

all in all it was a good time. i can't complain. and let's hope that 2009 is even better.

cheers.

.just.
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sometimes i really don't know what to think.

i was going to write more, but i lost it all before i started typing.

.the things i do.
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so, it's been a little while and i haven't really been paying much attention to this thing in recent, but why not throw a little something up here every now and then?

anyhow, i don't really know too much about what i'm writing about, just that i'm pressing some keys and saying the words in my head while actually typing them. i guess i could just post up a little about how life is and thoughts-a-plenty on that.

well, first off, living in canada is actually going half-decently. it's not the best most exciting thing ever (which i thought is was going to be) but, it's definitely not disappointing. i think the few things that really just got to me about the whole move were:

1. missing my family and friends.
now, i didn't know how much that was going to be until i actually moved away. but, in retrospect, i should have taken some notes from when luke moved. i was a upset, not going to lie.

2. meeting new people.
this one here is a doozy. it's really not as easy to meet people as i expected. i'm not going to say i'm the most social person, nor would i say that i'm the least, but, it's just simply more difficult than anticipated. i guess i should have expected it a little bit, being in the suburbs of a big city. plus i'm working in a real job with family, so it's not like i have a totally new work environment with people i haven't met or much free time. my only real saviour out of this predicament is the fact that the pub i go to is actually pretty wicked. so, i began as "that guy" at the bar, and now i talk to people when i'm there. it's not like i'm hanging out with these people all the time, but at least i've got a few people to talk to a few hours out of the week.

3. winter driving.
not fun. not lying. i really like snow, when it's snowing, and snow related things in general. the flip side to that is, driving in it sucks horrendously. i thought i might have sort of a little insight on precipitous driving conditions having lived in florida. but, rain and partially frozen rain, totally different. sliding around in the snow on a sled, fun. sliding around in the snow with 3000+ pound objects sliding around you as well, horrifying. that's all there really is to that one. i don't wish that on anyone.

on a somewhat related note, i'm waiting on it to snow enough to make a sweet snowman or maybe a snow-wolfman. that might be really fun.

and i'm absolutely positive that there are more things that aren't that great about moving, but on the counterpoint, there are fantastic things about living here. maybe those and more coming up in the next entry, if i get around to it. but that's about it for this one... good update.

goodnight.

.oh, so inevitable.
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as i sit here in the basement of my new residence, i listen to the familiar sounds of bands that have so graciously passed their ever loving sounds past my ears. these vibrations swim around and imprint their neural implications on my consciousness. it is a warm sort of feeling that is welcomed and cherished beyond that of many others. however, in its ever comforting grasp, i feel somewhat empty. its as though they were meant to be played, enjoyed, embraced in a life once lost. it seems like it may never be the same. and in that light, the signals which reach out fight a never ending battle to reclaim what was once rightfully theirs. little by little it becomes just a memory folded, wrapped, and tucked away. it just becomes that drug that we once used.

sticks and stones won't break my bones
it's the branches and the boulders that i shoulder.

.fo sho.
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so, i'm in the process of moving back to canada!!!! new job, new place, good times. project manager, you say? this is what i'm talking about.

.of course not.
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the lights tonight are wildly bright, although their intentions were not so. it sometimes seems as though a sort of wormhole appears and you ask yourself that one question of bravery... 'should i go through?'. it's usually the right choice. who doesn't want to see something that's so unimaginably distant and alien that it all seems so familiar? it's the kind of thing that's a deja vu but, it isn't. i close my eyes and image this far off land and planet and trees and animals and everything else and i wonder why it all seems like i've been here before. i want this to exist in reality and i want to know that it's really there. who knows what kind of crazy things the future will bring. the reaches of my imagination always seem so distant but, in reality, they are right in front of me.

.you know.
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it makes me happy to be able to turn thoughts into audible waves with my hands.

.i know.
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what was i thinking about...
it's just a minor thought being passed around. it's funny how beers and music can make you feel. it's just that thing that makes other things work. i don't even know where i'm going with this. i just feel as though if i keep typing something important will appear magically on the the screen. and to be totally honest, i don't know if i have anything important happening right now. i just feel so non-comfortable right now. it's definitely not a good thing. but, i can say, it's mediocre at best.

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